So I quit my job about 2 months ago, I still consider myself a bum compared to the 8-5 lifestyle I am used to! You wake up, drive to downtown, sit in front of a computer for 8 hours…live the american corporate dream.
I think about this all the time! What did I really do since then, am I on track? Am I wasting time, am I living my mission faithfully? Am I focused on something unrealistic?
In front of my desk I am seeing this paper that I got after attending the Global Leadership Summit & it’s powerful!
I haven’t committed to signing it yet because I’m taking it very seriously! It’s easy to say YES but living it is a whole different thing. I still don’t trust my messed up self.
Living in the US you get to enjoy something that you don’t get to enjoy any where else in the world. It’s often refereed to as ‘Freedom’ which is a real buzz word in America.
It’s not really a luxury to have freedom of choice in America. A simple visit to any grocery store is a perfect example of that. Sometimes its great to have that many options but realistically in many ways it’s distracting and limiting. I’d rather see 1, maybe 2 different kinds of mustard when I go to the store!
That’s exactly how I felt many days, this past 2 months. It felt like I am standing confused in front of the mustard aisle.
I still ask questions like:
- Which way?
- How to make money? This way or that way?
- How to be true to my God given gifts?
- In what way am I called to build the Kingdom?
- Will I screw it up, if I do then what’s at stake?
It’s easy for us Christian believers to use buzz words like “Trust Jesus”, “Have Faith”, “Pray”…etc which they are all great & I fully believe in them 100% but really..what does trusting Jesus look like? (Funny! As I type that, Pandora plays “Tis So Sweet to trust in Jesus”)
So for the past 2 months this is what I’ve been doing.
- Started (Still very early) a non-profit 501c3 with Brian McGown called MissioMicro. It’s mission is to empower kingdom builders around the world directly through peer-to-peer lending. (A whole lot will be revealed about it later, for now you can ‘Like’ our facebook page if you want to stay tuned!
- Started focusing more on my web consulting through my website
- Started focusing more on building up some websites I’ve had.
- Rented an office close by so I can think / brainstorm away from home.
- Visited Galveston for few days with the family
- Visited Colorado alone with my beautiful pregnant wife, since we really haven’t been anywhere along in years. 2-3, can’t remember?
- Visited Colorado again with my family. We chased black bears at night around the streets of Steam Boat. It was awesome!
- Read a lot but not enough!
Have I been faithful? Not by God’s standards! But I’m grateful that He shows grace, not just on the cross, but in everything on everyday. I know if I were to do it all over again, I’d make many changes for sure!
Regardless of where we live, we have choices, we’ve been given talents. What we do with our time, our money, our priorities reflect how good of a job we really ”Trust God” or do we just like saying that on Sundays!
My heart is to lead my family well to make an impact for Christ, to live a legacy & a story that is worthwhile. My friend Shane said it well, “I want to be beat up when I go to heaven, ill take a nap then!”
To me, it’s all about Jesus. It is! otherwise nothing is worthwhile.
Paul says it well;
He remembers who he is:
“Although I am less than the least of all the Lord’s people, this grace was given me: to preach to the Gentiles the boundless riches of Christ” Ephesians 3:8
and in that context, what he’s called to do
“I urge you to live a life worthy of the calling you have received” Ephesians 4:1
My prayer is the same because I got nothing other than choose to step out and trust Jesus knowing that I will likely screw up more times than get it right..
…get pumped because Christ has overcome the world so how bad can it be.
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